Wednesday, April 21, 2010

mature mind set??

am i really mature for my mind set?

for family,
i counted as a girl that always being independent since i was young~~
i always know how to take care on myself and my family well~~
they didn't worried anything about me at all~~
they believed on what choices that i had choose and won't comment too much on it~~
in their eyes, i always can make a decision that really didn't get hurt to others~~

for friends,
sometimes i do think like that because i feel like others are so childish~~
or maybe they are just have different mind set from mine but i can't accept it??
childish is not to criticize them, but maybe they are not generous on it~~
i do think why people can't just have a personality of being generous~~
maybe is not for everything, but at least don't ever counted for tiny things lar~~

for relationship,
is being an experience to learn how to have a mature mind set within it~~
is not easy to be matured~~
i have to be calm all the times and don't think things that i simply guess ~~
i have to act like i m very generous for him, so that he can do his things well~~
actually is not to act, is a way of learning style for being calm in a relationship~~
nothing can be quarrel~~
nothing can be counted~~
everything is just fair for each other~~
no doubt is given to anyone~~
either you appreciate it well, or you let go~~
the person who have the mature mind set will always get a logical mind~~
things that given to you, if nothing go worst, then you can continue do it~~
if, it hurts you everytime, then i think is time to let go~~

p/s : each relationship give me an experience from it, learn from it and don't make it happened again~~and all these make me have a mature mind set...at least i think so~~smile =)

Monday, April 19, 2010

^^

just suddenly feel heart warm~~
we chat a lot and share a lot tonight~~
i always like this kind of feel~~
it just makes me forget all the unhappy things~~
i like it so much~~
and i just simply like you calling me dear~~
although not that special~~
but still feel warm inside my heart~~
because i am just an easy girl that will simply happy with a simple thing~~
^^

ok~~
the time now showing 419am~~
means the night not young anymore~~
is time to sleep~~
finish viewing the slides~~
and you fell asleep already~~
haha~~


p/s : nitez nitez lar dear, sweet dream and sleep tight, love you, mmuackx~~^^

Sunday, April 18, 2010

that is not my purpose !! T.T

i know i can't complain to you,
so, i didn't complain anything to you dis time,
please don't think what i told you is complaining to you,
i know you busy on the activities that you organize there,
i know you take everything more important than me,
i know you don't like i disturb when you are not willing to bother me,
everything here i also know,
i already try to not go and find you,
give you all the freedom,
and everytime also telling me that you busy and i having single life now,
like this i just won't think too much on you,
everything that i told you is just what i thought,
i m not purposely want to complain or want to show off,
i got nothing to be complained to you,
i understand what your situation now,
so, i just let you do what you want to do,
i know all those are your responsibilities,
and i got nothing to be showed off to you,
i just tell you only,


that's why i said before, the more i say out, the more will get wrong,
i less find you also is because i scare you will angry on me,
so, i not dare to disturb,
i scare you don't want to find me anymore,
so, now, the problem still coming out,
i already tired with these kind of misunderstanding~~

p/s : i don't know how long we still can hold hand till~~ I LOVE YOU !

Saturday, April 17, 2010

just ''haiz'' ~~

is my choice~~
but, seem like is not what i want~~
girls alway need care and love whenever they need~~
i know what is the situation between us nowadays~~
but, i still have a hope between us~~
haiz~~

there is so many WHY appear everyday~~
WHY this, WHY that~~
but, WHY you just don't understand me??
haiz~~

i already let you so many times~~
can you please turn back and see where am I and how am I now??
did you realize something??
haiz~~

ok...i am stupid enough to have you in my life~~
but, it's already a fact that i have to face it, so i will accept everything~~
actually if i don't care so much, there won't be a point for me~~
or if i didn't think too much then everything will be fine~~
i know you can do it well, but, i am still an ordinary GIRL~~
GIRL everytime serious in their relationship~~
although i already know there is a ''fake'' in our relationship~~
you can keep on playing out there~~
but, once a moment, can you turn back and look at me??
haiz~~

i know the words ''break up'' is very easy to speak out~~
but, just don't know why, i still giving you a chance to come back to me~~
if not, at least can let me fully trusted on you~~
all i need now is just a safeness that given from you~~
haiz~~

the aging for a guy is not same as a girl~~
girl can't wait guy until they stop ''playing'' just back to their side~~
it's just too late~~
haiz~~

p/s : i know you don't like what i write here, but this is the sincere words from me, if you really need me in your life,i hope you can realize it earlier, please turn back your head and look at me, and i hope i still standing at there waiting for you~~

E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G

故事里的 起承转合 有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折 才暗示着 该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻
  
就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
  
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything
  
遥远天际 巧合相遇 有多少几率
多少烟火 坠落无痕迹
因为幸福 没有捷径 难免要绕道
不被看好总是要走到
  
就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
  
你就是Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything
  
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
  
你就是Everything
就如这个原因 我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

p/s : will you be the person who sing this for me?



video

miss you~~

is been separate for 4 months then we back to each other again~~
actually it should feel happy and glad to have each other~~
it is not so easy to get back the person you love again back to your side~~
although i know it's already can't back to the position like last time we were together~~
the feeling that we used to have last time already different now~~
since we know each other so much now, so we won't touch the point that will make each other feel sad or down again~~
and just because we know each other so much, so, the communication between each other become less than last time~~
maybe we are not as sweet or as close like last time~~


but, we know that we need each other~~
for any reason or yet, for certain purpose, we together back again~~
although still can't forget what had happen last time when we broke up, but still will think positively~~
actually i already don't care whether i now is having single life or having a partner right now~~
it seem like didn't change much of my life now~~
my life still going on, whatever~~


this is the second time we been together~~
so, we know each other pattern~~
what can say and what couldn't~~
what can share and what couldn't~~
and the time spending with each other also not as much as last time already of course~~


we need freedom~~
we are the person that cannot stick to each other too much~~
if, stick each other too much, conflict might be happen~~
as what everyone said~~
the more we talk, the more we get wrong~~
maybe i always be the one who get wrong~~
so, i already learn from the pass, just because i respect him as my partner~~


what he always told me was, maybe i m not the person he love the most, but i am the one who treat him the best, so, he wish to has me be with him~~
and what my mind thinking is like, hmm...ya, maybe he is right~~
but, sentences that came out from a guy, the probability on trusting him is just like less than 50%, some more he is not a normal guy, i mean not a very loyalty guy~~
but, as people said, this is the personality of a guy~~
guys like to flirt, like to know pretty girls, like to meet hot chicks~~
but, as long as they know to back ''home''~~
so as to girls~~girls can be good in flirting also and maybe it won't lose than a guy~~
girls can easily get flirt with guys, as long as they have a prettier look than normal girl and have a special outstanding *communicate style*~~
so, in this case, it should be balance for us~~
we have the same kind of ''personality''~~
although is not that good enough for a pair of couple~~
because it might be more easier to break faster~~
but, sometimes it might be funny~~

so, conclusion is, we treat each other as soul mate, but we are couple~~


p/s : trusted on what should i trust, believed on what should i believe, i won't blame anyone~~
maybe i already not the LIM PEI JIE that you used to know, but, i still got feeling on you~~
''hope'' we can hold hand till the end~~*seem silly because seem like impossible till the end, but is good to have this kind of mind set*~~


Friday, April 16, 2010

错了吗~~~

关心一个人,
本应是没错的;

了解一个人,
本应是没错的;

疼惜一个人,
本应是没错的;

对一个人体贴,
本应是没错的;

对一个人细心,
本应是没错的;

喜欢一个人,
本应是没错的;

爱一个人,
本应是没错的~~~~


其实, 一切都是对的,只要你找对了那个人~~
这一切的一切都会换来无比的幸福跟甜蜜~~
无时无刻都能体会到那份暖暖的爱围绕在你身边~~
做任何事都是如此的快乐~~
沉溺在爱河里,
即使在生活中发生了不愉快的事情,只要能在事完后找到依靠的肩膀,一切都能安然度过~~


找对了那个人,
就像每天都活在惊喜当中,他会让你每天都有不一样的新鲜感~~
他这么做只是要让你开开心心的度过每一天~~
他的每一句话语都能不知不觉地牵走你的心,好让你能安心的跟他在一起~~
当你把事情搞砸时,他会责骂你说为什么那么粗心,可是到最后,安慰你的都是他~~


当你很爱他时,
不知不觉地想要知道他一整天在干嘛~~
不知不觉地想要知道他有没有在想念你~~
不知不觉地想要知道他是不是也在跟你想着同样的事情~~
就因为这些不知不觉,
你就会一直对他问东问西的~~
如果没得到满意的答案,却会对他抱怨一大堆~~


然而,久而久之,
他会觉得你很烦,每天都要管东管西的,一点自由都没有~~
他不喜欢跟你说话,不喜欢跟你抱备任何他所要做的事~~
他去做一些让你心痛的事,然后对你说他那样没对不起任何人~~
他越来越少跟你联络,他不想听到一大堆怨言~~
甚至,可能他已经不爱你了~~
到那个时候,你想要挽回一切都已经太迟了~~
想要回到从前更是不可能~~


一旦,
男人做错事,女人很容易就原谅了男人~~
那些甜言蜜语真的是女人的死穴~~
可是,
女人不小心做错了一点小事,男人根本就很难去原谅女人~~
即使女人说了几百句对不起或好听话,对男人而言都是废话~~


男人不能接受自己的女人跟别的男人亲密,
可是,男人却喜欢跟别的女人有说有笑~~
可是到头来说一点错都没有~~
男人就是这么的霸道~~
女人生气都没用~~


爱情,这两个字,
女人是用爱来包容她所爱的男人~~
男人却是用情来看待一个女人~~
女人能为这份爱付出她所能付出~~
男人却因为情来衡量他是否应该对女人那么好~~


性~~
女人是先有爱才会跟男人有性~~
男人却会因为性而去爱一个女人~~
女人考虑很久才会把第一次献给男人~~
男人却什么都不需要考虑,轻易的夺走女人的第一次~~
女人事后会对她所作所为在忏悔~~
男人会因为夺走女人第一次而感到骄傲~~
女人虽然过后嘴里说不要再跟男人发生关系,可是心里却会想,如果不给他,可能他就不要她了~~
男人虽然说如果女人真的不想给他,就没关系吧,可是暗地里却在抱怨女人~~


或许,
这些就是男人跟女人的差别~~
女人永远都很难了解男人在想什么~~
男人也永远都不会知道女人想要什么~~
女人这么做是因为爱男人~~
男人这么做可能也是一种对女人的爱~~
只是女人很难了解男人对她的爱~~
而男人也对女人给他的爱不谅解~~

爱,
真的是世界上最难解决的难题~~
我们不知道它是怎么制造的~~
我们不知道它是怎么产生的~~
我们更不知道为什么我们就是那么需要它~~

不管,那是对的人还是错的人~~
他,曾经都是爱过你的人~~
如果还在一起的,别想那么多了~~
虽然,你怎么都不了解他,可是既然他愿意呆在你身边就要多珍惜~~
即使,他用了多少谎言来盖过更多的谎言,
或许,他真的需要你在他身边,只是他需要更多的时间~~
或许,他不想你想太多,他真的需要一些时间~~
或许,女人会为了这个男人而错失比他好,更爱她的男人~~
或许,女人浪费了不少青春在他身上~~
或许,全世界都认为女人傻了,蠢了~~甘愿等一个不值得她等的男人~~

可是,这些事情错了吗?
只要女人认为无所谓,她都已经爱上了,其他事情还重要吗?

很多人都说,
女人是拿来疼的~~
女人是拿来爱的~~
女人应该让男人来爱,而不是去爱男人~~
女人应该去依靠男人,而不是去乞求男人来给她依靠~~
女人应该是活在幸福当下的,而不是傻傻的去等一个男人~~


女人都了解这一些道理,
可是,固执的心却掩盖了一切逻辑~~
这就是女人~~


所以,请别伤害爱你的人~~
他们是没错的~~
只要用心,你也会慢慢的体会到这份暖暖的爱~~
珍惜一切,不要等到一切都来不及了才后悔~~
在你一生当中是不可能都能那么幸运遇到两个爱你的人~~
错过了一个,你就永远错过最爱你的人~~

好好爱吧~~
人生短短几十年~~
能找到自己的归宿,真的是不容易的事~~
虽然大家都说下一个会更好~~
可是,下一个未必是你最爱的那个人~~



p/s : 爱你的人~~错了吗?




Thursday, April 15, 2010

爱就对了~~~^^v dun care other thing !!

总是要流一些滚烫热泪
才能换来对爱的体会
你看 时间没有毁灭
心也没有碎
其他的就交时间解决
你当然可以重新再爱
受过伤的感动 怎样爱与被爱
多余
反正你有他的回忆
有空白回忆
离开你的 只有他 但是 爱还在
听我说
爱是对的 错的是我们
还没学会爱 就急着爱人
而爱错人
可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的
我当然经历过你现在的感受
我想那是人必经的折磨
也许每个人都该是某个人成长的助手
受一点苦痛 帮助她成熟
听我说
爱是对的
错的是我们 还没学会爱
就急着爱人
而爱错人
可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的
别探听他的线索
别等待他会回头
爱 不喜欢看人软弱
别继续把心封锁
别躲在伤心里头
爱 万一来了别错过
爱是对的
错的是我们 还没学会爱
就急着爱人
而爱错人
可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的
听我说
爱是对的
错的是别人自以为的爱
才会有爱人又伤害爱人
可是
爱就对了
爱了就值得
爱就能懂得
健身当快乐
爱就对了
听我说
爱是对的
错的是别人自以为的爱
才会有爱人又伤害爱人
可是
爱就对了
爱了就值得
爱就能懂得
健身当快乐



爱就对了

放手也是一种幸福?



是舍不得还是真的放不下?其实,只要我们完全不联络,现在的我也不会在这里写那么多 !!一旦联络上了,我就像现在这样恋恋不忘~~傻了。我的脑说这是不对的,可是我的心却跟我的脑唱反调~~我们彼此都清楚知道我们之间只剩下当初的恋恋不忘,而不是当初的爱恋!慢慢的,我们的话题越变越少,彼此的关心不知何时也变得无影无踪~~渐渐的,我们又变成两个陌路人!

你给我的回忆我都藏在心里,
偶尔拿出来回温。。。

很无聊的,
你的照片存了又删,
删了又存回。。。

很自私的,
每天都要你在我脑海里跑一趟。。。

也很愚蠢的,
每一天在你看不到的角落关心你。。。

对你,
其实我还在意。。。

曾经的我问自己,
我们还有可能重来吗?
一旦复合了,
结局还是会一样吗?

脑海中,
一直都浮现种种的疑惑,
很多事情,
明知是谎言,
但~~我还是装傻扮不知。。。

我很清楚知道,
我们的生命线本来就不会有交叉点,
有缘能让我们在一起,
除了珍惜以外,
还需要真心,
真心能让彼此努力维持彼此的感情。。。

两条平行线,
是不可能相遇在一起,
但是,
每个人心中的平行线有不同的排法,
平行线也可以是交叉在一起的,
在那点遇见的俩人,
是幸运的,
懂得珍惜,
就是好结局,
不懂得珍惜,
两条平行线就会变成两条完全没有交会的平行线,
而其中一方也只能隔着远方望着那个不回头的人。。。

终究,
我们成了彼此的路人甲。。。

分手后~~

不可以做朋友,
因为彼此伤害过。。。

不可以做敌人,
因为彼此深爱过。。。

所以我们成了最熟悉的陌生人。。。


想念你的我,
希望你是幸福的。。。


p/s : 我不想放手~~~因为我们现在还牵着手。。。












Wednesday, April 14, 2010

it's complicated~~~ >.<'''

the very first blog i wanna write here, is not about what my feel on starting the first blog...but is about my feeling now....sometimes i also dunno what is my mind thinking...although i know all those is not good for me or even there is no answer for that question, but i still waiting for it ! i always believe there will be a 'good' ending between us, although the whole world telling me tat will be the very wrong choice for me~~~haiz...the trusted that i given to u sometimes is juz like a word to fool me...the more u trying to explain, the more u trying to create a lie...is hard to has a full stop between us as long as u r still in my mind...
*i know this is stupid*