26/4/2011

study week past silently

never touch anything during study week

busy finish up all the assignment until last Friday

and actually I still have 1 more not yet do - Arabic group presentation

nobody got the mood to do it or can be said nobody willing to do it

but it still going on and will be carry on this coming Saturday

right before the Arabic paper.

paper will start as late as 29th April

it's super late but better for us cause we got enough time to prepare for it

but super dislike the scedule that make us not much time to prepare for last 4 papers which is located at the same week. OMGard .....

anyway, best of luck to people

the weather is super hot, so, take care.

don't falls sick.

p/s: hope the date of 14th faster come and I will be super free. final exam session 2/2 ~~ please let me overcome you nicely. bless me my Buddha =)

the cute seniors' farewell party

there was a farewell party for those seniors AKA 38 gang AKA old peoples !

there are 2 videos prepared for them

didn't contribute much cause they scared the bf of mine - ah quan will know what we were doing if I keep on not online or suddenly told him I need to do things.

that's why I was just very free for this preparation until the day.

used many lousy excuses just to not to let quan know I am going out to prepared the party

maybe too obvious I suddenly too busy or mentioned too many times to remind him what time and where to meet me.

ish ~~ include all the old peoples, they all knew it.

nothing to be surprised since the Kancil betrayed us.

Laugh Die Me XDDDDDD

ok. there is it.

they all reached there and came out with all laughters.

everyone ready for the steamboat and of course the video as well.

the highlights:

1) everyone boom out how Uncle Yan wants to have this farewell party. ;P

2) Uncle Yan thought we will have another surprise for them, instead we really don't have. but suddenly think of we not yet post out something. after that, coming out with the surprise " wu gun apek" performance !! surprise lar, surprise ~ called all the KAWAN-KAWAN some more. hahahahahahaha

3) Edwin will ask everyone to silent down when come to my part in the video. make me paiseh only. although is me, myself want to talk in that way. hahahahaha ^^v

the oldies - (back row left) Jenny, 818, Eacy, Leng, ah Shiang

(front row left) Xiao Loong, ah b, ah Quan, uncle Yan.

the youngsters - (back row left) me, roy, eng, ryan

(front row left) MC, travis, edwin, andrew, yujin

the whole family *wow ~ so spring huh* =)

the links to both of the videos in Youtube:

part 1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLMR8ba1Od8

part 2 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t38l5NsD2yI

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thanks you all to make the isolated forest island to become interesting. really have a lot of fun since we met. is really make us have a lot of nice memories with all of you. without you all, the campus will be very boring and dull. we will always miss the time with you all. hope we all will keep in touch no matter in any ways. good luck and take care. =)

p/s: hmm ~ 3 years studies come to an end. just left final exam and internship only. everyone will get a flying color on both of it. good luck in everything and you all's future ahead. we will meet again in KL perhaps and of course during you all's convocation. will miss you all so much. see you. bye ~ *hug*

tears dropped

I know I shouldn't be like this

but my tears really unable to stop

I really too sad to even imagine each scene that will happen on the day

I'm gonna miss everything that you did before to me

everytime I message you, you sure reply me very fast

everytime I find you in MSN, you sure quickly reply me

even if my MSN is on dc and I find you in Facebook chat box, you will saw it very fast and reply me

when I am sick, you didn't say much then quickly fetch me go many places to find a doctor for me

when I am hungry, you will because of me quickly prepare out and fetch me go eat

when I need you, you sure at there for me

but very soon, you are not around me anymore

I really not used to it even you not yet leave here

I really can't stop to miss you and my tears keep dropping down for the whole day

I don't know how should it be this Labuan without you

you already treat me so well for such a long time and I just start to use to it and you gonna leave me soon

without you I am so lonely at here

when you are working, I not dare to disturb you

when I need you so much and you are not around me also

I shouted out thousand times for myself say cannot behave like this but my heart is so painful to tell me that all these are facts

p/s: I never cried for a guy for such a long time. I really couldn't accept well everything that will happen very soon. the more I stick with you, the more I don't want to let you go. the more I say I love you, the more I will very sad to send you leave from here. can you be by my side for 1 second more * this is the thing I most want to tell you when you gonna leave here* T.T

for you ❤

亲爱的

是你让我一早起身想到的人就是你

是你让我想把一切都对你坦白

是你让我一直都没办法不去不想你

是你让我改变了对感情的观念

是你让我觉得你真的是一心一意的对待着我

每天都期待着和你见面的时刻

从一开始很尴尬，很害羞，到后来变得那么的大剌剌

我们一直都想着我们只剩下不到一个月的时间能每天见面

没什么多余时间让我们拖了

每天都想着情侣之间能做的事

吃饭，散布，去海边，聊心事

其实我们在一起不像其他刚热恋的情侣

算一算，我们在同个学校将近两年了

在学校也能很容易的碰面

也一起跟一大班朋友去旅行

平时都会出去吃饭

所以我们之间的感觉很像在一起很久的恋人

在一起的时候

我不自禁的在你面前哭了两次

只是因为我太久没被人放在手心上疼爱

也只因为这一切的幸福即将有个转垒点

你要去到更高的一个人生道路

而我必须把大学最后一年把它念完

我们即将分开一年才有可能像现在一样很容易的能见面　*希望如此*

不是我的哭点低，而我真的无法控制它落下的速度

我以为我能忍，可是真的忍不到

眼泪还是不听话的流了下来

我知道你不忍心让我流泪

我也试着让它不落下来，可是当我再次看到你那对我依恋的样子，我是非常的不舍得

我很难让你离开我身边，真的很难，我已经把我自己喜欢你的程度提升到一个境界，可是时间却残忍的要把我们分开了，我的心是非常非常地痛。

每当一想到那个场景，我真的就不知觉的落下眼泪

我真的有千千万万个不愿意让你离开我

虽然，我们可能比人家好一点因为还在同个国家

可是，你的家乡离我家乡很远，工作地点又不近

我没有要求很高，只希望你每天放工回家能上网陪我

我需要你每天都花一些时间在我身上

不管工作有多忙，多繁重，都不要把我给忽略了

不然我会胡思乱想

我很怕你会像对我那么好一样对其他女生

我很怕哪天你嫌我烦，讨厌我，然后不要我

我真的很怕 ！

我知道你跟其他男生不一样，你不会那样对我

但是，我真的有这一方面的恐惧感

远距离恋爱真的会让人疲惫

my dear's quote:

好好的一个人，为什么会搞成这样的?!

haiyo，可怜。为什么会生病的？

哭什么哭，你哭我会很心疼的叻。

p/s:

如果一个人让你笑，表示你喜欢他；

如果一个人让你哭，表示你爱他。

谢谢你，我爱你。

my love

thank you so much.

you are that care about me all the time whether you are with me or not with me

there is no other words than just say thank you.

everything you did warm my heart so so much.

you treat me too good until I hard to accept when one day you are not around me.

I don't know what I need to do to make it equal.

it seem like I really did much lesser if compare to you on me.

*although I very enjoy the way you treat me lar .... hahaha*

the meal, the ride, the service, the warm, the love, the care, the mumbling.

thanks the ways you LOVE me.

p/s: heart you. =)

the night

the begin is there

choose not to publish as first

but seem like something wrong there

if there are people who talk to me before

they won't believe what had happen tonight

totally can't accept what they saw tonight.

but ya, is a truth!

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chyuan:

you are the one I choose

the one that always stay around me

the one that never hesitate to be with me

although it's some late

but luckily when I turn around

you are still there for me

thanks for it

I already get out the first step

I will try to make it better in future

hope we will appreciate the month that left for us to be together

there will be a tough road for us

but I believe that it will bring us to a better way

p/s: I can't promise to have a perfect relationship between us, but as long as we are trying, then we are getting at the right position. ^^

p/s: although this post seem like got some serious, but there is a joke in between. there are always rules from a girlfriend.

1) what your girlfriend did is always correct.

2) if you feel/think that she was wrong, please refer to first rule.

^^v

hiao

suddenly thought of last year bought a piece of temporary tattoo for SSIL Night.

but on that night, I forgot to bring out, left in hostel.

thats why I keep it till now.

took out and think it is suitable to stick on for this sem SSIL Night.

hahaha

coincidently, there got roses on it.

vampire theme should match with rose * I think so lar...*

yesterday, hiao-ness attacked

find it out and try out how to paste it on my skin

follow the instruction and paste it on my hand

i found out it's cool

butterfly will ordinary stick to flora ^^v

p/s: there will a rose appear on my hand on that night =)

9.4.2011 ( saturday )

although there is low productive today ~

somehow, I did something important for me ~

if realize ~

I really never say a sincere thank you to you ~

THANKS !

believe or not ~

this tiny thing give some effect ~

lol

p/s: ^^v

o.0

sometimes

it

is

not

necessary

to

say

thing

until

so

comfirm.

who

know's

there

will

be

any

changes

after

that.

everything

is

not

in

our

hand.

lastly

I

would

like

to

say

I

should

not

think

that

my

thinking

was

correct

maybe

I

should

change

once

in

a

blue

moon.

decision

make

and

cause

me

can't

sleep

tide.

p/s: 女生应该找爱自己多一点的男生。❤

-.-

last few days suddenly homesick attacked.

my dad called me cause long time didn't talk to me, perhaps it just few days ago only.

I said where got, you too miss me is it ?

he said ''yalor, yalor"

although I always say like this to them, but still feel something inside my heart.

after that, my mom suddenly create a new account in Facebook.

I felt very very curious, she sure forgot this and that again so need to create a new account.

this is the THIRD account already ~.~

straight called back home and ask her.

she said she forgot password already *as expected*

I wanted to finish this phone called after ask her why, but she seem like don't want to off the phone, ask me how am I? how life here? everything ok or not?

all the answers of course is a "YES"

after all and all, I started to miss my parent and my siblings.

when lye on the bed prepared to sleep, can't control my homesick and cried like hell.

once cried cannot stop.

I'm so damn miss them although I just leave home for that 2 months only.

the point is: my dad now is staying/working in KL, my mom in Segamat.

how can a couple living together for more than 20 years suddenly separate like this??

I can't accept well about this.

I not yet feel the environment in my house that without my dad.

previously was my dad went outstation for few days and I will saw him back again.

but now, I think is 1 month once or maybe 2 weeks once.

how my mom and my little brother can live in a house so lonely.

it is already very quite when there is just 3 people in a house, now turn to 2 people.

sad !

is very boring you know.

after my elder brother, me and my little sister left the house, the large house become larger !!

imagine the feeling when your partner have to go to another place.

the feeling is so making people getting heartache.

so-called-long distance relationship.

me, as a young people already can't accept this, how come they can accept this?

can't said already 20 years relationship, who still care this thing?

I care !!

they are so love me.

I need them both together when I'm in home.

T.T

long distance very torturing ~

how you love a people deeply ~

long distance will separate it at last ~

this is what I thought ~

no prove until now show me it's work ~

somebody show me ?

show me long distance got any benefits and it's make you very in love everytime.

p/s: I Miss Them ~ IMT!

latest me

p/s: ^^v

raining Tuesday

I never say why it is so never to be truth.

main problem: I fear of distance.

p/s: =(

心淡

千古罪人往往都是那些出了差错，一直试着辩解却在还没解释已经被人一枪毙死的人。

做好事几千年，偏偏在临死之际出了差错，全世界都是把你成最坏的人。

每件事的发生不是没有原因的，只是在于如何处理事与非。

对不起，我是个玩不起的人。

我不懂你的游戏规则。

在这个世界从来都没说你是好人，所以他们就跟你是朋友。

庸俗世界只容纳懂得什么叫生存的生物。

人不为己，天诛地灭。

我真的不懂我干了什么事，不跟人们说话 - 我错了?

不跟得罪我的人而从来不知得罪了我的人说话 - 我错了？

不跟我认识的人说话只因我真的不想说出一些什么都错或得不到回应的话 - 我错了？

不跟他人说话因我的一切东西被他人被评得一文不值 - 我错了？

不跟他人说话是因为不想听到一些不切实际的回答 - 我错了？

你从来不懂什么叫道歉，何来求得人们跟你说一句话。

或你从来你嘴贱从来都不是问题？

人家当你是人的时候，你何时当过人家是人。

你只是在你需要的时候利用对你有利的人，用完就丢，这是我看到这么久的事实。

难道我要当这么没出息的人？

你以为你是谁？

我课业的评分者？

我未来的财主？

你有你存在的价值，我从何不是，每个人都一样。

没有人能奢求每个人都喜欢自己，讨好自己。

说是为了未来踏出社会必经之路，让自己能变得更强韧。

对不起，我早在很多年前出国训练回来。

真的‘人不为己，天诛地灭’。

我没有能力让自己变成那么贱价。

我的一切言语只是为了维护自己。

没人为我挺身而出说一句话。

我只能为我自己辩解，没人理我也罢，清者自清。

曾几何时我对你做了什么事吗？从来不！

是我的言语伤害了人？几时？拜托，你不认识我？

本来根本不是问题的问题，硬硬把它拨开就是问题。

本来可以很平静地度过度过剩下的一个月，没人去点燃那个导火线，偏偏在不对的点丢下了火种，你要我怎么办？

有一种名词叫后果，你想到了吗？

这不是在怪罪，只是真的没人在提起。

虽然不是说不提就没事，可是好过把事情闹大。

难道我不想接下来的一个月平静度过吗？

我是脆弱的，也需要被人保护的。

曾经对人们投诉着一切的由来，他们说不理就好，世界和平。

好咯，他人一直对我下狠话，讲很难听的话，一直在气人，我什么都吞回进去，我一句都不回应，真的是一句都懒得应付他人。

到后来，我换回来的是什么？

好，难道我这叫恨？

何谓恨？当他人说任何一个字，想都不用想就一巴掌盖过去，这才叫做恨。

请把我也当人看。我也是我爸爸妈妈最疼爱的女儿。

没力掉泪，因为掉泪不会让我有钱拿！

感谢老天把这一切洗尘，让我真的认识更多。

让雨越下越大，帮我浇熄一切风波。

我很累。

p/s: 说话有分寸是为了积口得，难道你们看过我破口大骂一个人吗？有的话，你才有资格说我错了. 请不要在背后说三道四，有学问的人，请把自己身价抬高，因为你没剩多少。

sunday

woke up morning in the early

recently can't sleep late

don't know why

automatically woke up before 10am

have the works whole day

doing tutorials in Maya

so called individual assignments

like this we all just will work on on it

konon-nya

after that

quickly took a bath

went to watch a movie organize by Vampire's Nite

Underworld 2

didn't watch the first part

tried so hard to understand what they are showing there

end up watched till half way only

went CFC have dinner

met juniors told me the second round got nice movie

after ate

walked back to there

it's showing 'Gulliver's Travel'

heard before

really nice plus funny

half way, my dad phone me

told me he back home cause ''清明节''

he back hometown ''扫墓''

I just realize is already reach this day

he also told me last 2 weeks

also is the week I went to Brunei

my grandpa's sister pass away

I didn't knew anything until today

shock to hear this

she was that close to us before that

I mean before we move house

continued movie

no longer, finished already

back to room

tired

start to feel sleepy

but still got works to do

although it is not that rush to submit

but still wish to finish earlier

pass by here to crap a lot

here is the place I release much

by the way

I hope that my friend recovered from ''love matter''

no need to sad and down because of a girl

what I said before is to advise you

and what I told the girl is to cheer you up

but I never thought it just will make it become more worst

sorry about that

because I tot the girl won't find you for this such tiny things

but she did plus make you so ''no face''

don't worry

we all stand by your side

we all support you

cheer ^^

p/s: tomorrow start week 13th. is the second last week larrrrrrr. God bless us.

she-man

what so sensitive?

religion? never from me

people? forget about it

the sensitive issue is the inner side from a ''so-called-strawberry boy''

people are so sensitive with strawberry boy

I was !

dislike them to a limit

their behave, their attitude, their habit, their everything.

now, I tried to close with one of them

to be honest

they are just normal, nice to all of us

same minded, same level with us

just the ''hormone'' disordered since don't know when

I start to ''like'' my friend instead of using using different minded to see them

he is such nice and tell the story of him to him when I curious to know

she-man abmit they are ''pondan'' because they said they are !

they never take care on others comments

they more like to di-disturb from others

this will let them have presence in this social world

they very generous to abmit they like guys because they are ''pondan'' not because they are gay.

i just found out this 2 terms got different meaning actually

p/s: by the way, I also like to kacau him cause he will shout and complain like a girl. funny =)

fool fool day ^^

happy fool fool day

anything also can fool

come fool me if you confident with your power

see who fool who

anything/everything can fool

just relationship thing can't be fool

in 1 second time

I got think to fool the world with a person

but

after some thinking

it's not good to the person

if he really make it true

then I'm the 1 in the trouble

if suddenly I pop in "I LOVE YOU" in the person msn or message

the person will think it is real or maybe will more hurt to see this

because it never be truth

p/s: another new month of the year ~ add oil people ! =)