Wednesday, November 3, 2010

~ wish ~

is my little wish on my big day ~ ^^

maybe many people can't understand why i will keep on post out to remind others my big day is coming soon ~ sigh !

this is because from young till now i never experienced any birthday celebration that purposely is made for me, no surprise, no special, no reason.

and since the date is 10/11 !! it make my parent confuse whether i am november's baby or october's baby !! @_@'''

everything is so unmemorable and i can't feel any special on the day.

i really make it as my very very important day for me of the year ~

and sigh again, another reason for me never get a nice celebration is because the date is always during exam week !

i so wish to have celebration like everyone has ~

i so wish to get a unforgettable birthday celebration from a lover ~ ( i am single this year, last year got but long distance, so get nothing also ) ~ what i mean is "secret romantic"

i so wish to get surprise from my family members ~ ( but this year i am not at home )

i so wish to have something special from my friends ~ ( seem like i never experienced this before )

i so wish to enjoy my birthday fully without anything to doubt me ~ ( more difficult to make it real )

i so wish to have birthday present ~ ( i don't think i could receive it here and my closet friends just will meet me after my birthday, means nothing also )

p/s : i wish to have a special, romantic, excited, surprise and unforgettable birthday celebration at least once in my life -- from a special one !

::: 02112010 :::

this is not my day ~

i get so empty today ~

i am so lonely ~

it's really been a long time i didn't felt this way ~

i couldn't find a person to accompany me ~

i wish to study but mission failed ~

want to sleep but ''girl's stuff'' make me cant sleep ~

want to eat but stomach not feeling well ~

end up with milo + biscuits at 9pm++ ~

whole day moodless ~

this really can let me to fully express this word - LONELY !!!

but, it's still feel glad cause i get to know a new friend ~

thanks him ~

p/s : happy birthday to kevin wong vui zeng aka gary zai aka kevin gaga ~~ ^^v


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

~ 我是傻瓜 ~

过去了的, 真的无需再提,提了只是让我更怀念过去 ~

过去回不了,未来得不到 ~

所以更希望能珍惜每一秒所能珍惜的 ~

问世间,情为何物 ?

没人能给予正确的答案 ~ * 因为‘情’不是物咯 !*

因为某些人,让我不那么相信何谓‘ 爱 ’ ~

因为某些事,让我不知所措 ~

因为所谓的天时地利人和,我,变得胆怯 ~

我拿出我所谓的胆量,换来的只是失望 ~

我变得不会像以前那么执著 ~

是我的就是我的,不是我的,我再怎么抢都没用 ~

到最后,伤得最深的还是自己 ~

我现在只剩 ‘坚强’ 来陪我度过日子 ~

我真的已经是可以用‘铁石心肠’来应对每个人 ~

可是,我还是一样过的很开心 ~ 哈 !

每天都有许许多多的人来把我的视野变得很广阔 ~

p/s : 我珍惜能跟你相处的时刻 ~ 我珍惜能跟大家在一起的时候 ~ ^^

Monday, October 25, 2010

~ sweet escape ~

hehe ~

through this title also know that i am in good mood today !

had a sweet escape for 2 hours at beach there ...

i had been study here for almost 3 full sems and this is the first time i sit at the beach there ...

sit at there not for played water or having my meal, just chatting !

feel good when looking at the sea for 2 hours - but it's just not enough for me.

i wish i can sleep at the beach there cause of the tiredness !

fully enjoyed the sunshine, the wind and the wave ~

having fun for the whole 2 hours.

feeling good for this.

i laugh a lot and relax much !

thanks for calling me to beach ...

p/s : a very nice sweet escape ~~ hehe ^^v

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

weird me ... ... ...

how weird am i ?
hmm....
i found out that i always will have deep thinking when i am under the water or in the water.
when i am in the water, i used to think deeply about who am i !
not in the form of where i come from or what is my name ....bla bla bla like that.
it is all about what is the purpose i born to this world or what i can do to the society or what kind of future i want !
i really think deeply every single about all these.
maybe i very curious about this cause i really don't know what i can do or what is the mission that given for me to let me live in the world.
everyone has the own mission that given to success it but of course we don't know what is it.
just until the moment we get success, we just will realize it.

while i am in the water, my body will in a very relax mode but my brain will keep on turning and turning to think deeply about myself !
i will think
-what are the things that bothering me everyday?
-why these things will happened on me?
-how are these things could be solve?
-who are the person that i miss the much?
-when i am going to get everything that i wish to have?

i very eager to have the thing that i want to be mine.
i can't let it be like that and get away from me.
it is hard to accept when i can't get it when i already work hard on it.
i just will work hard on it when i already know the thing will definitely be mine !
i will aim it as mine and get approve on this and make it to be mine.
after this, i just will expect for all the good ending rather than thinking i won't get it as mine.

i always not so care about my image to others.
everything is just their thinking that i can't control on it.
i like to be myself like this that always make myself as a joke to others.
i don't need a proper image to keep me always in a good condition and become the girl that everyone like.
people will like you because of certain personality that you already have but not the fake one !
but since young i already been educated that being a human can't be too over on anything.
i know all the respectation to everything and to everyone.
so, everything is still under control !
weird me still can be accepted by everyone.
lucky me !

in this special 20.10.2010, i watched seniors' FYP presentation. both group did a good job on it. didn't get shoot and just receive comment to improve on their work. well done to you all !!
i know what is my condition now and is impossible for me to stand in front of all the panels without any shooting from them if i still don't get improved on myself in this short time. no one will help me, just i am the one can help myself. so, be more HARDWORKING always please !!

p/s : weird me turn to become like this. weird me with a weird personality. weird me with all the friends that i like the most. weird me with environment nowadays. ^^

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

~ recently ~

start it from 09/10/10.
the day that think of there are many assignment and homeworks need to be pass up for next week.
it would be a shock because it was really suddenly pop up in my mind.
i nearly forget about the database tutorial work and more worse is there are no one done it.
* hehe...it's really very important for me cause i know i rush with time with my 2 poor multimedia assignments and no time to be share for it - can be so called last minute work, didn't use time wisely!! my fault ~ *

that day kept on searching recipes for my multimedia design's assignment.
it is all about healthy eating that can found in mobile application.
so, recipes for healthy foods are very important cause it can let the users get it when they using their mobile !
we need to do a design about the mobile application, it's aint easy cause need flash to make it out. our leader responsible on this part, while other group members help him in everything included writing the report. *i not yet finished it and the due date is this ''THURSDAY'' which means 14/10/10. aiks.....
i knew i will going out the midnight, thus i quickly search everything and make it neatly and email them to my leader.

skip to the night.
it was a ''boring'' night perhaps.
i can't feel the climax of the night, just keep on standing at a side or hanging outside.
besides, also taking care on a junior - she was drunk !!
but then, she still can dance well and sing with the correct lyrics, just can't stand properly only ~ LOL. with this, i almost whole night dancing with juniors. quite fun also. hahaha...

jump til 10/10/10.
it was a special day with a special date.
i slept at 7am and woke up at 12pm. was weird for me cause i never sleep so less after spending so much energy after a night !
i didn't felt exhausted at all. maybe i didn't drink much on that night.
i woke up and do my homeworks and continued my assignments.
finding photos for my multimedia production's story board. it's really wasting our time, no point to do it !
i don't know what the heck the lecturer was thinking about. she didn't ever get a good lecture since first time ! but unfortunately, she was my mentor !!
what a sad ~ keep on wasting our time !!!

at night, went to group member's house to combine all the photos and arrange it exactly look like our hand drawing storyboard !!
* because the lecturer said she can't understand what we draw on it !! ish.......so nice still can't understand, or maybe just few groups' drawing make her thought like that and effected others group to change it !! *

when i editing the photos to make us easier to print it out, 1 of my friend suddenly felt excited when heard can play guitar. after she got it, she started to play it.
amazingly, she impressed me !
i totally can't say out words when she manage to play 1 song completely when she got the guitar. after that, she continued by many other songs.
WOW !!!
although still not that pro cause just play for fun, but it's still considered as good. not like me, learn piano since young age, but give up in the half way * hate the theories ! * but i still can play it when i saw piano in front of me ~ ^^v
this was the thing that make our 10/10/10 memorable.
it's really nice and warm.
we chat a lot while doing each other homeworks - cause we are from different courses, but stay in the same roof.
we laughed a lot and of course sang a lot !! so happy and enjoyable.
^^v thanks girls.

the last , 11/10/10.
this date not that special, but why i still want to mention here??
hmm...it could be have some reason.
the date in last year, it makes me feel warm and sweet but it already totally different this year.
the different is just the people that make me feel this way but is having the same feeling as last year.
not said i still miss the feeling, but is i found again the feeling now.
i feel warm with this. *G.L.A.D*
and another thing is, the number of the day !!
next month - 10/11/10, it belongs to me ~~ it's mine !!
hehe....but sad case, like usual - need to study for my exam !!
aiks..... :'(

p/s : happy together everyone ^^v

Monday, October 4, 2010

hehe ~

don't know why am i actually want to write at here.

i seldom to take a deep observation on myself actually.

i don't care what others said and i also not that take care on myself for something.

and lately i found out i have the same habit when i met him.

i like to appear in front of him and sometimes although i pass in front of him but don't want to have any eyes contact with him. hahahaha......syiok !

actually i seldom met him in campus. very weird was, when i want to meet him, how i wish also cant meet, but when i didn't think will meet him in somewhere, for sure i will meet him. LOL ~

i used to disturb him and like to find some topic to talk to him cause i want to stay a bit longer with him. hmmmm.....hehe...but he just will smile smile and shy shy talk to me. but it's different when he talks to his friends, very loud one ! =.=

i really will feel happy whenever i meet him in somewhere although i didn't talk to him or just have eyes contact and say HI to each other. i like this kind of easy yet simple things.

in these few months time, i know some of your personalities and i don't think you know a lot about me. i don't know how much you know me and see me as. i am a simple person but i definitely not a cincai girl ! i won't do anything for the person that i don't like, it's really make a very big different ! maybe, the opening of our story would be something wrong there, but quite funny and memorable. i never expect for it. i 38, i hiao but i also will serious ~ the outside me always show a sunshine me, but inside me is still sunshine yet a homestay girl. i very ''guai'' one !! hehe ~

i am a complicated girl with a simple heart. i will care you, heart you when you do the same thing to me too.

p/s : i like to higher up my head to talk to you, i like to smile to you when i am facing to you, i like to look into you when you do the same way to me. hehe ~ ^^v